Low.
Careful.
I stood outside once, my palm flat against the wood, and heard Grace's voice crack.
Then the murmurs would begin.
"I can't keep doing this," she whispered.
"You have to," David answered. "Just a little longer. Please."
I stepped back before either of them opened the door.
***
That night, at dinner, I set his broth in front of him and tried to sound casual.
"What were you and Grace talking about earlier?"
David studied the bowl like it was a puzzle.
"I can't keep doing this,"
"Nothing, sweetheart."
"David, there's clearly something between you two…"
He finally looked up.
His eyes were sunken, tired, but there was something else in them.
Something guarded.
"Later," he said. "I promise. You'll understand later."
"David, there's clearly something between you two…"
I heard that word so many times over the next two weeks that it stopped meaning anything.
"Later" became his shield.
His lock.
The door he kept slamming in my face while our children set the table and Grace washed dishes like she'd lived with us her whole life.
Then came the day I found her crying in the laundry room.
"Later" became his shield.
She had her forehead pressed against David's pajamas.
"Grace, honey. What is it?"
She jumped like I'd caught her stealing.
"Nothing. I'm fine."
"You're not fine. Nobody in this house is fine. Please. Just tell me what's happening between you two."
She jumped like I'd caught her stealing.
She wiped her eyes with the back of her wrist and shook her head.
"I can't. I promised him."
"Promised him what?"
She looked at me for a long time, eyes filled with tears.
Then she shook her head.
"Please don't ask me."
"I can't. I promised him."
She pushed past me and disappeared up the stairs.
I stood there, biting back a scream.
I wanted to march upstairs and demand every answer he owed me.
But I didn't.
Because I loved him.
Because he was dying.
Because a part of me was terrified of what the truth would cost.
I stood there, biting back a scream.
Three days later, David went into the hospital and didn't come home.
The funeral was a blur of black coats and casseroles.
Grace stood beside our children the whole time.
People asked me who she was.
I told them she was family.
I still didn't know if that was true.
People asked me who she was.
The night after we buried him, I lay in our bed.
His side was cold for the first time in fifteen years.
I couldn't stop staring at the ceiling, cataloging every unanswered question he had left behind like unpaid bills.
That was when the door creaked open.
Grace stood in the hallway light.
She was clutching something against her chest.
The door creaked open.
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